Yes, it’s true.
The writing has been healing for me.
And I appreciate you saying that because
There has been a lot that I’ve wanted and needed to write down
And had been stopping myself.
Regarding love
I’ve been single now for a while
So much so that it’s now more an identity than being in relationship
And this is a new feeling to me
A single woman, in a home, with her dogs
When I first moved in here. I was not happy.
My relationship was ending.
I had a new car and a house and a career and the “things” that I expected might lead to happiness
They didn’t
I was lonely and sad. I was grieving the loss of my grandfather.
I was grieving my best-friendship style relationship that I’d been in for 3 years
We were always great friends, and I truly cherished that.
Even though we were not meant to stay romantic partners, sharing a life and a home and family gatherings with someone
Was of great comfort.
I was single an entire year. Then I met you.
I think dating you catapulted me into relationship-land
Because I was so excited. It had been years, genuinely years, since I’d felt any of these feelings.
And they were totally real. Nothing forced about it. Kinda magical, you know?
And because I can merge so easily, I think I just did. Well I was happy to😊
I’m sure that was overwhelming. I don’t even know if I could have stopped myself.
My life is in a different place now.
I see friends, I have my hobbies.
Every now and again I might see someone for a date.
Nothing has become serious. And I’m sure a lot of that has to do with where I’m at emotionally.
But mostly, I feel good in this place, genuinely good.
I think I’ve rediscovered the things that make me happy.
The things that are not financial or outward measures of success
My relationships with myself, family, friends.
The boundaries I have set that protect who I am.
The way I determine if I want to let someone in, and to what level.
Music, writing, my passions.
Gardening, cooking, simple pleasures.
I’ve always really wanted a simple life. A home full of books, music, love, art, good conversation.
Dinner every Sunday afternoon where family and friends are just welcome to drop by.
Connection, passion, introspection, love, truth, justice, community, fun, acceptance and peace. These are the values I’m after.
Listening to: “Simple Things” by Miguel
Musings and Flow 